Start: 182.8
Day 1 - I was a bit nervous about getting on the scale this morning. And when I write: "a bit nervous", I mean, really really nervous. But only a bit came through because I am sick. My youngest daughter is sick...I think we got the same thing. It's no fun. So not only did I eat stuff I shouldn't have eaten while out of town last week, but I didn't T-Tapp yesterday. I meant to. I started to. But I just felt too miserable. So I get on the scale today, and I actually saw 181! Thought..hmmm...got back on and 182.8 stuck. I'm good with that. I might be at wedding weight at the end of this week...that would be awesome. In the meantime, I just want to pop pills to relieve the pressure in my head and sleep. There will be no T-Tapps today. If I do them, my head may explode. I don't even want veggies. I don't want to eat, but I will.
Day 2 - 181.4. I am THISCLOSE to wedding weight! And...drumroll please...this morning, I was a tad more than half way to my goal weight! Oh my. This may be possible. Now. For my confession: In the midst of my feeling lousy, I didn't get dinner started early enough last night. So I'm here, with an incredible amount of head pressure and achy going on and my hubby calls. During that conversation, he mentions how Denny's is now open and we could meet there since he's still 1/2 hour out from town (we live in a small town in the middle of nowhere...having a Denny's is BIG news..and he drives 1 1/2 hour to get to his work site)...I say, "YES PLEASE!!!" He thought I was being sarcastic since I'm miserable. I wasn't. So I meet him there. I order fish with sauteed spinach. The man brings out 4 little hot rolls. I'm giving them the stare down. Finally, I tell my husband that I'm having one. He says okay...then asks if I've had bread since starting this (bread is my all-time favorite food), I say, only the bread at sacrament at church. He is amazed. Then feels bad because he said okay...I said, nope. This is my call...you've been extremely supportive. So. That's my confession. I ate a small roll. Seriously small. And I ate it slowly. And I enjoyed it. And I ate no more of them...perhaps practice for the future? Brought the last two home (he ate one) for his lunch today. I didn't touch them until putting them in a baggie this morning. Sigh. Another nine weeks and we'll be getting close to Thanksgiving. I'm eating Thanksgiving...whether or not I'm at goal weight...but I will eat like I'm in the consolidation stage and one serving. Control. Maybe I'll be at goal weight...who knows...it's just over 11 weeks away. Anyway...my point is: I cheated. The world didn't fall apart. Had my oat bran cereal this morning (is it wrong to like it as much as I do? something comforting about it)...got my husband off to work...took a long nap...woke up still miserable and it's time for another dose of pills. Didn't do my T-Tapps yesterday, but did do the Hoe-Downs before bed, that pushed it. We'll see how it goes today.
Day 3 - 180.8. Holy cow. Okay, so Hoe-Downs before bed is sticking in my head as a good thing to do. Actually...I read on their website to do it after each meal? Something to think about. Today, I'm choosing not to fast. Because I'm still sick. But the sneezes have come on, so I'm going to take that as a sign that I'm getting better.
Day 4 - 180.4. Still head pressured. Can't do any exercise movements...almost did a walk last night but I'm just beyond tuckered out. Did my Hoe-Downs. Methinks that I'll keep that part of my day, no matter how I'm feeling, cuz my head stays still. Last night, I enjoyed my veggies...posted a picture of them. Today, I shall enjoy my lean proteins and nonfat cottage cheese. Get some chores done around the house while I have a little bit of energy...haven't taken any pills today, and it's bearable...I think I'm on the upswing! Plus...WEDDING WEIGHT!!! I'm just happy about that. Very happy. Although, I still expect to see a '200' number on the scale. Somehow, I need to get it into my head that I'm 20 pounds away from that number and it won't just appear overnight.
Day 5 - 179.0. I need to digest this number...it's going to take me awhile. Does this mean I've left the 180's behind? My mind is completely boggled...unreal. I need to have some quiet time.
Day 6 - 178.6. Don't know what's going on with the numbers here...makes me a bit nervous. I ate normal yesterday...didn't go berserk on veggies, just had two salads with my lunch and dinner...dunno. Just hoping the numbers don't go up. I'm almost ready to sort through clothing and get rid of things that are getting too baggy. *GASP* Yes, it's true. I'm almost ready to do that. Almost. Tonight, I tried a new ice cream thing. It fit my dietary guidelines...but oh my...was it nasty? Yup. It was nasty. And then some extra nastiness thrown in for good measure. I believe that I'll stick with my CarbSmart Breyers...I'm not big into ice cream, but those things are just WAY good. Even shared with my dad and his wife when I saw them...they were hesitant about a sugar-free ice cream bar that I can eat right now. Ha! They both loved them, she asked it's name so they could get some. ALWAYS trust the chunky girl on what treats are good. Even when said chunky girl is losing her chunk.
Day 7 - 179.something...I forget what the point number was... Perhaps, just perhaps, by the end of the month I will be off the "Obese" part of the BMI scale. That would be nice. Perhaps, just perhaps, I'll weigh 178 or 177 at the end of week 10. But...tomorrow is the official week's end weigh in. Hopefully, I'll still be in the 170's, and I need to stop and celebrate that victory. Because that's a victory. A few months ago, I was in the 200's. I need to recognize that. And realize that I'm not going to gain 25+ pounds overnight. Perhaps it is time to reread my book and see what I pick up on this time...now that I'm trusting what he says because I see the proof in the numbers. Even if my eyes don't always see it in the mirror. Trust my hands while I'm washing my face...cuz I feel the difference in my face. Trust my clothes..because there is a difference there. I shall get there. But I'll need every minute of phase 2 and phase 3 to get my head all straightened out.
Official weigh in from the end of my ninth week in the Cruise Phase: 179.0
Week nine weight loss: 3.8
Total weight loss: 26
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