Start: (176.0)
Day 1 - ... The above weight is in parenthesis because I'm not home...not with my scale... Eating away from home can be tricky...did good today. Stopped at the grocery store before getting to my sister-in-law's last night. Ate broccoli and steak for lunch. Went to a chinese buffet for dinner (made hubby happy)...I started with a salad and then took my plate around and got stuff that was okay to eat. Got full on "approved" foods.
Day 2 - ... Still not home. No weigh in today. Going to get my hair done, will see family...husband will work on my sister's fridge while my gray is being covered. I'll stay strong and think about my doctor appointment in two days...want to make the nurse's eyebrows move when she writes down my current weight next to the number from a few months ago...
Day 3 - ... Not home. No weigh in today...which is probably a good thing. And as I sit here, I wonder if I'm doing some self-sabotage... My brother-in-law got KFC for dinner. Now, I could have easily said no..I'll eat my stuff. But there was the mashed potatoes...and some Harmon's french bread...and...I caved. On purpose. It wasn't even an accident. I had an original chicken breast. I had a small spoon of potatoes and gravy. I had a small spoon of coleslaw. I had a most delicious thin slice of french bread with butter. AND...he makes the best frozen drinks...I had a frozen fresh lemonade. And now...I doubt myself and why I did that. I ate slowly and enjoyed it. I wonder what the scale will say at the doctor's tomorrow. I wonder if I damaged the numbers by my eating. I don't know. I do know that I need to get back to business. I'm getting closer to the goal number. I can do it. I can manage. I need to manage my attitude though. That'll be the trick. Perhaps I need to make some mini-goals. Maybe even just daily goals. Create some rewards for myself. Problem there is that rewards have almost always been food-related...how to do that now? Dunno. Before I started this Dukan Diet...I honestly didn't think I'd see 180 again. That was unattainable. But my rewards before were a particular dress at 190...when I hit 190, I thought...nah, I can wait until I'm back to size 8. My big reward was for 180...electrolysis...I already hit that number...and I think, eh...I ought to wait until my "true weight". So. How to reward...I want different clothes. But I don't want to spend money on clothes that don't fit for very long. So. No idea. No clue.
Day 4 - ... Got home late tonight, no weigh in. Doctor visit today. According to their scale, I've lost 28 pounds since I was there last. Had blood taken for tests..hope my numbers improved. Doctor hadn't heard of the Dukan Diet...she wrote it down to look into, but was happy with what I've done. Said good job. Told me congratulations. Yeah!!! Food was odd today. Didn't have "smart" choices to make for lunch, so had the Atkins Protein Drink. For dinner, I said I needed to eat now...hubby wanted to get on the road and suggested I have an Atkins (to be kind of fair, I did just buy a bunch at Walmart because they're more than $2 more here) and we eat down the road. Enter in attitude courtesy of me. Completely wasted because he slept most of the way. So I had another Atkins drink...which Dr. Dukan didn't really want me to. He had some chinese food halfway home. I made some turkey patties when we got home and survived just fine. Attitude mostly gone..food helped it leave completely.
Day 5 - 175.2. Traveling wipes me out. Could be not going to bed at a decent hour for 5 nights. Long nap. Couple loads of laundry. Put things away. Meeting tonight...weird to be patted on your back for strengths, but at the same time, I'm getting a pretty dang clear view of some weak areas... Made myself some poached eggs and had some of my fake crab meat. I'm starting to get really ready for the consolidation part of this deal. The end of November seems a long ways off...perhaps if I get my stuff together and get back to serious business. I need to finish reading my current book and put the blue book (dukan book) out in plain view so I'm getting into it regularly. That may help my motivation level. And also to remind myself of the progress that I have made. There's only so much cross stitching I can do instead of feeding my face. Need to find out what else people do instead of munching on food. If you are reading this and have suggestions, please feel free to leave comments...
Day 6 - 175.something. One of the drawbacks to getting up before the sun is that my brain isn't engaged completely...so sometimes, I don't remember that number. As to food. Today, I didn't live true to my 100 foods list. And thinking about what motivates me (re: learning about myself in the training that I mentioned yesterday), I think I need to have a break scheduled. Something to work towards. I can follow a strict schedule. I can follow a strict dietary list..I have proven that to myself. What I can't do is go without a light at the end of the tunnel...and the end of November? It's not a real thing to me. So...I may or may not stick true to this, but...what got me through July was knowing that I was going to have a Sweet Tooth Fairy cupcake for my birthday. What got me through August was knowing that I might have a cupcake for one of my daughters' birthday at the end of that month. September...I did mostly good, but I didn't hold true like I did for those first two months. What I need is to have that kind of devotion to the list. And although right now I'm feeling like I would be happy with a couple bowls of oat bran hot cereal and some turkey...I know that's not in my best interest. So..I will give myself an "out" every two weeks. The 1st and the 15th of each month. Perhaps not that day exactly...and since I have that in front of me, I can think about it and when it comes down to it, I may or may not use it. Not the whole day. Just something. A piece of bread. A cookie. Not those lovely Carolina BBQ potato chips. Those I just need to not be around. *insert chuckle* Don't know if that will help, but I think it will. We shall see.
Day 7 - 175.8. Hmmm...could that be from the sugar I ate last night? And the bummer part is it didn't even taste as good as I thought it would. It was very sweet. But, I was thinking...tomorrow I start fresh. All in. So I ate it. And then didn't even enjoy it. When will I learn? Dunno. Going through the grocery ad this morning, I got a little bummed. I'm not big into apples, but I love love love Honeycrisp apples. And they're not around all the time. They hit the stores now...and oh...they are good. And oh yeah..I don't get apples until I hit my weight. So. Let's see if there will still be any in the stores when I get there. I'm sad about not getting the apples. But. I am down "30" pounds! How's them apples? (i quoted 30 since there's a .8 on that number) Let's see what the morning brings us! So, bad news is, Honeycrisp apples are in season and I can't have any. Good news is, it's very cold today...means the jeans came out...and I wore size 11/12 instead of 14 or 16!
Official weigh in from the end of my thirteenth week in the Cruise Phase: 174
Week thirteen weight loss: no official beginning number
Total weight loss: 31
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