Start: 171.6
Day 1 - 171.6. So...yesterday, as I was doing some...*ahem*...self-sabotaging of my "diet"...I think I had a moment of figuring something out. Not that anything is fixed, but knowledge is power...so, now that I realized it, I can work on getting over it. Or ignoring it until it's a moot point. What is it? I'm scared of the 160's. Don't know why. Getting under 200 was unreal. And happened fairly easy. Being in the 190's and then out...unbelievable. 180's? Came and went. Then, in the 170's...where I never thought I'd be...and I'm doing these stupid things to not stick to the Dukan Diet 100%...and what's the deal with that? I'm getting SO close.
Day 2 - ... Didn't do so great yesterday. It was just a bad day. Almost all around.
Day 3 - ... Okay..so the scale said 172.something. But I just don't want to put numbers down for a few days. Because I'm in a funk. Hubby says, what can I do? I say, move us. Silly me. I know a move won't fix things. But...you never know. There may be a first time for a move to fix things. And, to be fair, it will fix quite a few things. I'm just tired and frustrated. I'd say I need a jolt, but...I'm not going to...because I'm nervous about what God would send my way to give me a jolt. I know better than to ask for something that I'm not sure of the outcome. :)
Day 4 - ... At church yesterday, a nice lady pulled me aside and whispered at me, "have you been....you look really good!" It was sweet how awkward she felt...not wanting to offend? I didn't expect this reaction from people. Happened at the board meeting last week also, the board chair saying he didn't want to offend me by asking. ??? As if.
Day 5 - ... Yesterday was Halloween. I was prepared for Trick-or-Treaters. I wasn't prepared for myself. In the sense of: DO NOT BUY CANDY THAT I WANT. Should have just stuck to the Whoppers and Peanut M&M's. But no. I bought Snickers also. So, I'm thinking this morning about the Snickers that I ate yesterday. And thinking...is it worth it? In not getting my numbers to go down? And I had a thought...it's just food. And it doesn't make my brain feel good. It doesn't make my hair lush and shiny. It doesn't help my t-shirt look oh so much better on me. It's just food. I ought to treat it as such. My hubby is making sounds about looking into the Dukan Diet for himself. I'm just tired. I want to jump into the consolidation phase...but I can't. I need to work my way there...so I guess I ought to get to work again.
Day 6 - ... Yeah. Got nothing to say. (later today...) Okay, maybe I have something to say now. I spent a long time reading Dukan posts today. Even mustered up courage and posted a question about hair loss. Because, holy frickin' cow, my scalp and hair reacts too much to the seasonal changes, but this is ridiculous. Found out I'm not alone. Got some vitamin advice. Went to the store. Got a compliment. Realized that I'm in November...that my date for hitting 'True Weight' is a few weeks away and I've messed that up. I need to just do this. Take care of business. I'm 2/3 of the way there. I have some problem, but since I can't figure out what that is, might as well ignore it. Or bring it along. Feel a little closer to kicking my butt in gear...
Day 7 - ... Getting closer. Determination is kicking back in. Got stuff to help my hair. Have perfected my fake cookie recipe...for now... November is passing more with each day. I may not make my true weight by Thanksgiving, but I will be in the 160's...and that'll only happen if I work the program. So I'll work the program and Christmas will be a happy day..I'll get cute pajamas, instead of leaving myself out of the pajama presents because I didn't want fat nasty pj's while my girls wore the ones I wanted. And I'll leave this year at my true weight and spend 2012 consolidating that number and then stabilizing it for life. Sounds good, eh? Oh...and I'm making myself pumpkin soup today for lunch. I'm looking forward to it.
Official weigh in from the end of my seventeenth week in the Cruise Phase: 170.6
Week seventeen weight loss: 1
Total weight loss: 34.4
1 comment:
I feel that way about the 150s (where my true weight lies). What vitamin is supposed to help with hair loss?! My hair doesn't look like I've lost any, but holy hell, if I look at my bathroom floor its like a carpet!
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