Day 2 - Attack Phase

Weight: 233.5

I'll take it.  Tomorrow there should be a lower number.  Because I am not having sugar.  I am not having bread.  I am not having any of the things that I want.

I went and read my first day 2 - attack phase.  I remember the turkey patties.  I do love those things.  I shall go Foreman Grill me some of those.

I have a minor caffeine headache right now.  I am not giving in.  Even though there are diet Cherry Dr. Peppers in the kitchen.  Maybe next week.  Maybe tomorrow.  Not today.

I am bringing the Halloween candy to the church tonight.  I am sure the teenagers will eat it.  My husband is supposedly doing his diet, but he was eating candy last night.  No way.  It isn't like I was eating it before.  But, if I know it's there, and I hear him and smell the chocolate, then determination may falter.

I also went to bed earlier than my usual time last night.  That helped.  That will probably help in life.

I also had a Crystal Light thing in my water.  That seemed to help.  And it's a good thing I like boiled eggs.  Maybe tonight I'll do a squirt of mustard on it.  There are zero calories in it, I don't understand how, but that's what the bottle says.  And zero sugar.  So I ought to be safe.

Making a turkey bread tenderloin thing for dinner tonight.  Garlic and herbs.  It will be heaven.

P.S.  Evening update.  The turkey wasn't quite heaven, but it was good.  I didn't have any of the treats at church, that was a good thing.  I maintained.  I entered my food into my food app and for the first time, I got the "you did not consume enough calories...." warning!  That was nice.  So I went and had a little bowl of the imitation crab stuff.  All in all, I survived my second day and didn't eat or drink anything that isn't on Dr. Dukan's list.

There was a moment late this afternoon.  And since this is my "therapy", "success", and "failure" safe place, I'm putting it down.  I mentioned that part of my food abuse is in relation to my non-sex life.  I think I implied that my husband isn't attracted to me, that is my take on it.  It is my belief based upon my experience and feelings.  He says otherwise.  He says I am beautiful.  He says it is him, that he hates his body, not mine.  So, with that in mind, he was watching an episode of 'Family Guy' while surfing on his laptop.  I generally don't mind the show, but today I did.  The plot was a pregnancy scare and the dude ended up getting himself snipped to prevent such things.  Fast forward, they haven't had sex for a long time and she has gained weight because he won't touch her.  The show went ON AND ON AND ON.  I went into our room, shut the door, and watched tv.  He came back after awhile and asked where I went.  I said the show was making me angry.  He actually climbed on the bed (does not do that) and came up by me.  Kissed me and said sorry.

So.  That was our moment.

Come hell or high water, we're going to have a healthy active sex life.

Come hell or high water, we're going to be healthier.  Inside and out.

Day number two, attack phase.  I conquered.